Hi lovelies,
It’s been awhile since my last post. So much that the domain got bought!! How I let that happened? Well, life happened to me. Like everything in life… I went through an awesome positive and happy period to a not happy period last year. In there I lost my ability to feel inspired to write. Now, healed and positive again, I decided to start writing on Mariebliss because at the end is part of who I am and what I love.
The first part of last year was not so good. I realized even more that cold weather is not for me. For those who are in cold weather you know what I mean. I felt needles on my neck, back, heart and soul. I felt lost and alone. Nobody real to comfort me only myself. That’s when I decided to do more for me and not blame the cold because at the end the cold weather was not the real reason for my unhappy state. I decided to seek for a little bit of help. I went to an amazing therapist who uncover all the dirty clothes and skeletons of my body. If you never been to one let me tell is you is amazing. A therapist have the ability to guide you to a place where you can understand yourself better. It remind me so much on my psychological classes. When you know more of psychology you realize that a good approach to know ourselves better is understanding the human mind in a more subjective – biological way instead of reacting to situations via impulse or ego crap. Well, I took that piece of healing power and work on myself all through fall (most of my time last year).
What basic principles I realized ?
It’s OK to be sad and seek for help
It’s NOT OK to hold grudges and not letting go
It’s OK to forgive yourself
It’s OK if you realized you love yourself a LOT
It’s NOT OK to victimize yourself
Sadness like happiness will come and go. We just need to work on our minds to make most of our thoughts happy ones. We can do that by rejecting the ordinary sad state of mind and victimizing the outcome of the situations where you say “damn why me?” The best thing I would’ve learned last year is that I’m finally letting go… I had said this before but believe me takes time and effort. Changing our patterns and switching our minds to a new train of thought is not that easy. We need to understand that our minds are very powerful – we are what we think.
In the amazing process of recovering myself I learned to accept the changes within me. I accepted to enjoy life in a more simple way and not taking everything personal or granted. I become more relax, more zen, more aware of my reactions and end up loving myself way more – yes, there’s space here for infinity love. That’s when I realized I’m ready to let go of my awesome therapist and pack my bags and go overseas to see a man I was confidant I love.
Wow yessss… So, how this story end up?, you might wonder. End up with butterflies kisses. I’m happy, feel love, positive and ready to share so many good things with all of you in 2016!
Moral of this – doesn’t matter if you stop the world for a little bit to get to know yourself more.
Have a great day all!
xoxo
Cristina
