Everyday when I open my eyes I feel grateful and think: “Thank you God for another day of life.” After that, I don’t know where I’m going…what it’s my next step. I just know that I was granted another day on Earth, for a new chance. Even though I’m only 28 years, I still wonder like a 18-year-old and think “Where the hell I’m going to do with my life?”
I know I’m not the only one with this question. Maybe I’m too philosophical or think too much or read a lot or watch too much TV… I don’t know, but sometimes I wonder where I’m going and why I live in this type of world. Some days, I get angry and I want to forget this anger somehow. Not because of bad stuff that happens to me, instead of bad stuff that happen to other people. I have anger of how this world is living, of seeing with my own eyes how unfair life can be. People don’t seek the good anymore. Love is nothing, God is forgotten…people simple stop believing. How this happened? It has always been like this? Or did I just grow old and realized its reality? Does the technology damaging our way of thinking and communicating? Our education it’s not enough anymore? A lot of questions on my mind. I don’t know anymore, but makes me mad and sad.
Some days I feel so ungrateful for thinking about my own bad luck, but when I look around my problems are not even close to what is happening with families that lose their jobs or their sons and daughters. My problems are minimal and are related with my lack of courage for searching what I want. Maybe some laziness of my part for not working hard on what I’m good at. Also, could be settling with people who are not even good enough for me because I feel great when I can help them to be a better person…but at the end I’m not happy because I settled for less and for that my friend, I can’t complain.
Maybe these questions of life will forever be in my head or maybe one day I settle my life with my surroundings without caring anymore. What I learned about this or until now it’s that life are the choices you make. You surround yourself with bad people and that’s what are going to get: bad, negativity, problems and more. When you surround yourself with good people: spiritual, good energy, happy…everything in your life change for the best. They’re only few people in life that you meet and are grateful and happy to be alive. This type of people enjoy life even if they had little..because happiness is on the little things. I just wanna be like these kind of people and I will make the effort for it!
I know one day I will be looking a flower and contemplating her beauty or just listening a child laugh, it’s so contagious and I will be very, very grateful to be part of this wonderful world!!!! 🙂
Happy Tuesday! xoxo
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I totally identify with what you’re saying. I felt a bit better after reading this. I struggle with anger, and other emotions, but I feel angry too much. And then I feel sad because I’m angry too much. People make me angry, and then suddenly someone does something totally nice and without any hidden agenda and it’s almost impossible to believe it’s true. In fact, sometimes I’m never really sure. Don’t know where I lost my faith in people. I just find it really hard to trust anyone. Why you got so many negative people in your life?
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I can say they are different people in life. They are the ones who see life in a positive way and the ones that don’t. I think is up to us to choose what we want to be and who we want to surrounded with. Is up to us live the life that we want. They are going to be a lot negative people in our path and frankly I don’t blame them or judge them because a lot is happening in the world and we can loose the faith, but in my personal case I choose to smile as often and see the simple things in life and even though some days are bad I try everyday to give the best of me… is like I’m daring myself to be better. Hope everything works out for you and me. Have a good day!
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